For some reason I've been having these mini hallucinations lately. I haven't been kickin' it Donnie Darko style or anything, but it's been little things: dogs and people walking by that aren't actually there. Things like that.
Weeelll...
Tonight, after going to the grocery store as I was driving home and jamming to "Baby Got Back" like a retard in my car I looked in my rearview and swear I saw someone sitting in the backseat. I freaked. My heart felt like it was going to jump out of my chest and start dancing on my dashboard. My body got really tingly and I couldn't breathe. "Oh my god, someone must have gotten in my car while I was inside. I'm going to be murdered!" What's kind of funny is actually before that even ocurred to me I thought "Oh my god, someone has been watching me sing loudly to Sir-Mix-Alot!" Then I swung my head around and realized there was no one there. My heart is still racing and my body tingled for awhile. It was fuckin' scary. I wonder what causes that. Well, no rabbits named Frank yet....
Today I spent most my evening at the mall, applying to different places. I applied to the Prescriptives counter at Macy's. I really want to try working in makeup. I figure, I enjoy it enough, why not try putting it on other people too. The dude I talked to who was like the head makeup artist was so striking that I felt like a giant dork just looking at him. Not in a "Damn, I want to bone you" kind of way, just a "wow, you are incredibly androgynous and unique and beautiful and I suddenly feel like a goofy blob" kind of way. Hopefully I'll have some luck. I sprayed some Betsey Johnson perfume on in the store and it transported me to my litte gothing days 6 years ago. It leaves me warm and fuzzy. I love the way it smells even though I'm not typically perfumey. Anyone wanna buy me a bottle? I pay you fi' dollah!
My heart is not a racecar but it feels like one right now.
