Above is a preliminary drawing for a silkscreen. I've got a show coming up. I'm not sure when, but that's fine for now. I've just come out of the other side of a horrible month's worth of creative block. My professor is pissed at me and decides to say so right when I am showing him my new work. I've been depressed, but I think I'm feeling better. Having a job again makes me feel healthier. Kinko's is a cool place to work, at least my store is. I have a test tomorrow that I'm studying for right now, but I have almost no idea what the fuck I'm studying. Hooray for me. This is my break. As you can tell by my awesome prose, my brain is already fried.
zack [email] said at 3:12 PM 04-16-2002: Oh, you know him pretty well. It's frustating, b/c he has the worst timing possible. I've seen this happen with other students, most often the grads.. He gets annoyed at them about whatever and then lets it build up and build up until he's really angry, then lets you have it instead of just saying what's on his mind when it actually matters. In this case I was in the middle of showing him all this new work and saying that I thought I was coming out of my depression/artist's block/etc. etc. that we'd been talking about for weeks (and he'd been encouraging the whole time). It was bad timing, and showed that he was acting more out of anger than a need to correct my wrong behavior (I show up to class about every other class- which is par for the course since it's an advanced class, but on top of that I missed a crit, which is a big NO NO). I have no problem with repremanding me, since I've been fucking up and feel bad about it- I just wish it wasn't for not doing something while I'm in the process of doing it and correcting my mistakes. He also threatened to take my studio away if we didn't "get some kind of rapport going".. I was/am kind of peeved by the whole situation, but I couldn't say anything in my defense, because he holds absolute power over my situation, and it's better to let things like this blow over instead of creating a rift that could come back to haunt me. Now work that I was going to make anyway will be somehow tainted by this, as if I needed to "show him" what I can do.. My artwork is not there to appease anyone. I just want to be productive again on my own terms, which will satisfy his needs for me at the same time, so it'll all work out in the end. Whatever. I'm just letting off steam, I suppose it really doesn't matter that much. Praise be to killoggs for giving me a place to vent!
zack [email] said at 3:27 PM 04-16-2002: The show is really exciting. I'm not graduating for another 2 years (give or take a semester), this is a show not really related to school. It's going to be just me and ceramics prof. Mikey Walsh. I don't know if you know her, she got here after you left, I think. She's fucking awesome, and I used a lot of her drawings in the first Studygroup12..
The whole show is going to be all 2D, with drawings by her and prints and stuff by me. "Dirt" is part of a bigger project for that show, but I won't get into specifics b/c it's still evolving in my mind.. Anyway, if the Occulus people ever get it together it'll be there, and if not, Mikey was saying how she's going to open up a space for shows in this big new house she's just gotten, so it might be there instead.
Daniel said at 9:19 AM 04-16-2002: a friend of mine is a senior at the parsons school of design. they had a small show last night with about 20 works displayed. most of it was crap! what are they teaching people over there!
anotherben said at 11:12 AM 04-16-2002: the coffee mugs at my office say "a rind is a terrible thing to waste". oh that witty witty landfill gas collection system humor!
Daniel said at 1:21 PM 04-16-2002: i bought a ticket to 'the big game' today. it has a jackpot of 325 mil! i wonder if i will continue to read and post to killoggs if, i mean when, i win?
Daniel said at 1:44 PM 04-16-2002: rob, you should buy a ticket, just because i win doesn't mean that someone else can't hit also. just less winnings for me.
