I couldn't figure out whether to put this under Journal or Post it. I was about to put it under Journal but josh's excessive reminders about posting got to me.

Last night I was laying on the couch with my girlfriend of three and a half years (Megan) watching City of God (excellent movie if you haven't seen it), and she leaned over and hugged me. A normal hug. Nothing out of the ordinary. But it affected me.

It was a strange feeling. I kind of viewed her outside of the mental image I have of the Megan that I know and love. I viewed her just as a person; As another human being. It suddenly struck me as extremely significant that this person has allowed me to share her space. Allowed me to share her body. I think it affected me because I was suddenly viewing our relationship from another perspective. In my normal view of our relationship, I expect her to love me. I expect her to be there. But when I viewed it this way.. it seemed more significant. It also made me think maybe I've been a little spoiled and maybe a little selfish. It's not that I think I'm an inconsiderate boyfriend or anything, I just suddenly felt like I hadn't really appreciated our relationship.

Anyone else had anything like this before? After posting this I feel like I just got out of a Promise Keeper's workshop or something. I'm going to go listen to some death metal and cleanse myself.